Jaxson,
It breaks my heart to have to say this,
but, last night we lost your Great-Grandma, Barbara Ledbetter.
I am torn to pieces over our loss. I know she has returned to her
permanent home where we will some day see her again.
Although, it doesn't make it any easier letting her go.
She has been ill for quite some time now, although,
you would never know from talking with her.
She had such a peaceful, positive way about her.
I think deep down she was battling a tough fight
and was in a tremendous amount of pain.
She would always tell us she was doing just fine though.
She never wanted anyone to worry about her.
Of course we did though.
This life already doesn't feel the same without her.
I know she would be mad at me for saying that, but it just doesn't.
Even though her and Great Papa lived almost 2 hours away...
they were in my life more than anyone,
other than my parents and siblings.
I know we should be thankful for the time that God allowed us to have with her and that
he needed to take her back home.
She had done everything he had asked for her here on earth.
You better believe, I am already counting down the days until I get to see her again.
See her smile.
Hug her tight.
Hear her voice.
Eat all of her amazing food.
and be graced in the presence of an angel.
Yes, she is an angel in heaven now.
But, she has always been an angel.
Even here on earth.
My Papa was blessed with a woman to marry, love and spend a lifetime with.
My dad was blessed with a mother who supported and loved him.
I was blessed with a Grandma who showed me more about life than she ever knew.
& you were blessed to have had her in your life for 9 months.
You better believe that I'm sure she wishes she had longer with you.
She sure loved you to pieces and always looked forward to seeing you.
You sure put a smile on her face.
Now that her body is as strong as her mind, once again,
I know she is dying to hold you and play with you,
like she hasn't been able to do here on earth.
Boy, but did she try!
She is such a strong, inspiring woman.
I will sure miss everything about her.
When I say everything, I mean everything.
She didn't have a side to her that wasn't liked.
She was the real deal.
Birthdays just wont be the same.
Holidays just wont be the same.
The cabin just wont be the same.
Rummy Royal, Blitz and marbles just wont be the same.
Globe just wont be the same.
Mexican food just wont be the same.
Life just wont be the same.
I never imagined one without the other.
(Papa and Grandma, that is.)
It just doesn't seem right. They were a team.
They both have taught me so much about life without even having to say a word.
I hope I can live my life in such a way, that I may them proud.
Grandma,
If you can read this and you can see the tears fall from my eyes,
Please comfort us all through our days.
We will need your strength and love to heal.
There are no words I could say at this time that could explain all the feelings and words I want to say to you. I promise there will be times I will need you, lots of them.
Fly free, my sweet, dear, precious Grandma.
For you are always loved by me.
xoxo,
Brittany
